A Pastor’s Farewell


I answered your call
you asked me to sacrifice
what was most sacred to me
and I foolishly complied

Now I have to go
I don’t fit anymore
And I wonder if I ever truly fitted in
From the words I heard, now and past

Unloving
mean-spirited
disrespectful
ugly

When my main crime
is being gay
in a place where difference has little room
like the tattoos on my skin

And yet another problem is
what I don’t have between my legs
When what is in the heart counts less
then what is on the skin

A painful process of opening up again and again
not knowing if judgment or embrace awaits
carrying my heart on my hands for all to see
exposed to wind and rain

Now I turn the page
moving forward
looking towards what lies ahead
with love, hope and trust

Staying true to myself
true to my love
returning to my roots
embracing God and self

Grateful for all those who showed me love
for all the friendships that stay
All the others-
I wish you nothing but love,
and blessings of peace on your path.

#WontBeErased


#WontBeErased

DqQmBntXQAAQTyv.jpg smallI’m a ciswoman. I was born a woman, I got breasts, a vagina, a functioning uterus and two functioning ovaries. I got two awesome kids (it’s normal that they’re awesome, they’re mine!), conceived and born naturally without any problems. I identify as a woman, 100%, and wouldn’t want to be anything else, ever.

Recently, I got to do a DNA test for some issue. They had to re-do it because apparently, my DNA didn’t match my gender – that came as a big surprise!

Now I don’t particularly care about that DNA-gender-matching-thing because it doesn’t influence my daily life or identity – I still am who I am, a ciswoman as stated above, and far more.

Continue reading “#WontBeErased”

#NashvilleStatement


Shame
Shame
Shame

India under water
Niger under water
Houston under water
Syria shattered
white supremacy and racism on the rise
thousands homeless and hungry
refugees without homes
millions left without care

and you say you are the victim?

and yet you attack
you bully
you swoop down like a bird of prey
using the name of God

on a community already marginalized
already struggling
to bring hurt
to bring shame
to exclude and condemn

Who are you to judge,
to send to hell,
to draw a line in the sand,
to embrace Herod
instead of calling him out?

My Bible is not yours,
or we do not have the same eyes
and the same heart

My God is not yours,
or we do not have the same heart
and the same hands

My Jesus is not yours,
or we do not have the same hands
and the same feet

For my God
created ALL mankind in his image,
right as they are,
with dignity, wonderfully & precious

For my Jesus
did not draw lines in the sand in the form of creeds
to exclude an entire population
My Jesus had open arms
he walked with ALL,
and welcomed ALL,
restored the dignity of those who had been marginalized
engendered hope and not despair
brought life and not death,
he came to end violence and not perpetuate it

ALL are called to lives
holy, fulfilling, pleasing to God
in harmony with God’s plan for us
ALL invited into redemption through Christ

Nobody is rejected
from God’s loving embrace
because of their sexuality
or gender identity

For my God says:
I alone know the plans
I have for you,
plans to bring you prosperity
and not disaster,
plans to bring about the future
you hope for.

Chechnya, again, still.


For gays rounded up like animals
beaten, tortured, killed
in the concentration camp in Chechnya
we pray:
Lord, have mercy.

I cry out: MURDER!

Out of respect for tradition you say,
hunting down this kind of person
making sure they don’t exist
in society

For gays rounded up like animals
beaten, tortured, killed
in the concentration camp in Chechnya
we pray:
Lord, have mercy.

Denying their existence
yet saying that even their parents
would send them
to a place of no return

Telling parents to kill their children;
cleaning honour with blood
you call it

For gays rounded up like animals
beaten, tortured, killed
in the concentration camp in Chechnya
we pray:
Lord, have mercy.

You speak of ‘prophylactic sweep’
and go as far as real murders
electric shock torture and violent beatings
the image God held to ransom and extort their families

For gays rounded up like animals
beaten, tortured, killed
in the concentration camp in Chechnya
we pray:
Lord, have mercy.

Rounding up men on suspicion
humiliation
leaving others to return home barely alive
after confessing the names of others

For gays rounded up like animals
beaten, tortured, killed
in the concentration camp in Chechnya
we pray:
Lord, have mercy.

Lord,
have mercy:
on them,
on us.
Save your children, hear their cries.

Today,
I am gay.

 

*sorry for reposting this, with modifications though. I am very busy at the moment preparing teaching an intensive. But I am even more sad that I have to repost this. The situation in Chechnya is horrible, and apparently the President wants to get rid of all gays until May 26th. A news article read, “They tell the parents to kill their child. They say ‘Either you do it, or we will,’” an unidentified male told France 24 News. They call it: ‘Cleaning your honour with blood.”
I conddemn this, pray for the my gay brothers and sisters – Lord, have mercy on us, restore our humanity, save lives!