The Journey of Self

and being true
to one’s Self

Is like a bird
regrowing the wings
that have been cut off completely
left bleeding

It flies away
it takes off and soars
not looking back
Its soul finally coming to life
aflame with a thousand fires
shining in all colors of the rainbow

Being the way we are
the way we were meant to be
and created to be
Is the biggest way to honor
the One who created us

For it is saying
Thank you
for making me,
out of your pure and wonderful Love
shining through me now

And the bird takes flight.

God is Queer

Last night whilst reading, I had a wild thought: G-d is queer.

And I’m just gonna throw out some unordered, messy thoughts out here.

I was reading about queer theory; many queer theorists even refuse to say what queer theory is, arguing that it resists definition and is impossible to capture.

This, of course made me think of G-d right away.

G-d, for sure is impossible to capture, and in a certain way, resists definition.

We can try to define, or better, describe G-d with our words, images, and all sorts of comparisons. The Bible has many of such images, and believers throughout the times have used and invented many images and metaphors to speak about G-d and convey their ideas, perceptions and experiences. Many of them are of a raw beauty and are very strong, and still speak to us today.

And yet, G-d resists definition, for G-d is always beyond all that we can say about him, all that we can imagine about her. G-d created human beings in her image, male and female he created them; as such, both genders are in G-d’s image, and G-d contains them both. I’ll go even further: when saying that G-d created the heavens and the earth, we mean that he created also all that is in-between; when we say that G-d created earth and water, we mean that she created also all that is  in-between. So when we say that G-d created male and female, G-d also created all that is in-between.

With that, G-d contains all genders, all no-genders, all in-between genders – and is everything to everybody.

But that is not, or not only, why I’m saying that G-d is queer. And I’m also not saying that G-d is queer to exclude those who are not queer[1].

G-d herself is queer for several reasons. G-d is the One who transgresses the boundaries that others -or ourselves- have put up. Boundaries between people, boundaries inside ourselves, boundaries between us and the Divine. Transgressing those boundaries, G-d allows us to simply be, to simply exist, the way we are, the way I am. In doing so, a space is created in which different relations can be lived: vertical and horizontal, with G-d, with others and also with our (true) selves.

G-d is also queer in that, through that impossibility of definite definition, he leaves room for experimentation. There is room for trial and error, as this room is filled with a graceful generosity. This grace allows for doubts, questions, failures and all that makes us human.

Lastly, G-d is queer in that like in queer theory and activism there is a call to action, likewise G-d issues a call to action and presents us with an ethic to live by. It is not a holier-than-thou ethic, but one that demands to stand by those that struggle, to be their ally, to defend people’s dignity, and to accompany the other in their journeys and to be the helping hand when needed, and to stand up against violence in all of its forms – and if possible, in unconventional ways: queer, that is.

[1] My goal is not to create a distinction between those who describe themselves as ‘queer’ and those who do not – it is not them versus them, or us versus them.

Grace during the Night

where are you,
during the dark night of soul,
during the moments
when the pain eats
at the core
of my very being?

Where are you,
when my feet
seem to lose hold
and moving on becomes a struggle
like walking on a moving dune
of liquid sand?

Where are you
when the senseless emptiness of it all
wants to swallow me,
tempting take
all sense of perspective
leaving behind
only a sense of nothingness?

You are there,
in midst of it all–

lighting a faint light in dark night,
pointing towards a rock onto which to set my foot,
holding out a hand to lead towards new horizons,
new perspectives and fill me with new sense

Starting to once again gently shower me
with your Love everlasting
falling drop by drop,
washing away
what holds me back.

Psaume du milieu de la tempête

Au milieu de la tempête
au milieu du vent
et du creux des vagues

Au milieu du désert
sous le soleil ardent
sur le sable brûlant

A milieu du néant
Seule dans le brouhaha de la foule
Tentant de rester en équilibre

Où es-tu, mon Dieu?
Où es ta voix dans cette tempête?
Sous le soleil de plomb

Un murmure dans mon oreille
tel un doux vent d’été
qui caresse mon cœur

Ta voix calme ma douleur
Calme mes angoisses
Car avec toi mon Dieu,
la promesse de la Vie
est sans cesse re-donné
en cadeau.

Quelques pensées sur l’amour de Dieu et le discipulat

Connaitre Dieu, ce n’est pas tellement s’évader dans des spéculation vagues à propos de lui, mais d’entrer en relation avec lui. Le critère de cette connaissance et de cette relation est la pratique des commandements, c’est-à-dire aimer Dieu et aimer son prochain. Cet amour devrait informer toute la vie des croyants et déterminer les relations entre les croyants.

La Première Épitre de Jean souligne ici que pour demeurer en Dieu, pour demeurer en Jésus, nous en tant que croyants, doivent aussi vivre, donc « marcher », comme Jésus a vécu. L’exemple de Jésus doit nous amener à vivre dans l’amour – Jésus, dont l’amour l’a mené jusqu’à donner sa vie pour nous. Le bon comportement est donc pour Jean une partie indispensable de la vie chrétienne. L’obéissance se manifeste dans l’amour pour Dieu, qui lui répond à l’amour de Dieu.

L’Amour est alors à la fois la nature et une activité de Dieu ; décrit la façon dont les hommes se tournent (ou devraient se tourner) vers lui ; être fondé dans l’amour de Dieu devrait déterminer la relation entre croyants.

L’histoire du lavement des pieds montre bien cet amour exemplaire de Jésus. Le lavement des pieds exprime, symboliquement, ce qui était au centre de la vie et de la Passion (donc de la souffrance, mort et résurrection) de Jésus : c’est l’amour du prochain, qui se met au service des autres, y compris des plus humbles, pour sauver les hommes. C’est aux disciples, donc à nous, d’imiter cette façon de vivre, d’agir et d’aimer de notre Seigneur.



India under water
Niger under water
Houston under water
Syria shattered
white supremacy and racism on the rise
thousands homeless and hungry
refugees without homes
millions left without care

and you say you are the victim?

and yet you attack
you bully
you swoop down like a bird of prey
using the name of God

on a community already marginalized
already struggling
to bring hurt
to bring shame
to exclude and condemn

Who are you to judge,
to send to hell,
to draw a line in the sand,
to embrace Herod
instead of calling him out?

My Bible is not yours,
or we do not have the same eyes
and the same heart

My God is not yours,
or we do not have the same heart
and the same hands

My Jesus is not yours,
or we do not have the same hands
and the same feet

For my God
created ALL mankind in his image,
right as they are,
with dignity, wonderfully & precious

For my Jesus
did not draw lines in the sand in the form of creeds
to exclude an entire population
My Jesus had open arms
he walked with ALL,
and welcomed ALL,
restored the dignity of those who had been marginalized
engendered hope and not despair
brought life and not death,
he came to end violence and not perpetuate it

ALL are called to lives
holy, fulfilling, pleasing to God
in harmony with God’s plan for us
ALL invited into redemption through Christ

Nobody is rejected
from God’s loving embrace
because of their sexuality
or gender identity

For my God says:
I alone know the plans
I have for you,
plans to bring you prosperity
and not disaster,
plans to bring about the future
you hope for.